addendum

erm idk what i was on abt like 5 mins ago-- every time i write on this shit it feels like i am lying but i am really not LOL i wish i could just store my feelings on here and move on about my day and come back when it is convenient for me to deal with them. but then i see that i write corny shit like this and i dont want to address the fact that i actually feel things like this i am so tired braa i want to sleep  i miss my mom i miss my dad and i miss my brother when i am with you guys i forget all my worries and its just us 4 like it has always been i am always letting myself down here alone  i wish i felt as comfortable with myself as i do when i am around you all i am just an extension of you all i could write for days about the way i yearn to be loved the way you all love me and above all, the love i have for you all i wish my dad was here in my place i am so fickle i wish i could tell you all of this too but its so difficult ightbru i will show u this one day