& the beautiful life

parking lots and impromptu gas station trips

a stupid joke, a laugh

up too late and, ‘this is my hometown’

i’m 17 again

and god, is nothing wrong

and god, if i could live in this forever

would i?

in the backseat

low music

much too tired 

lights are low

i’m 7 again

being driven home by my parents

and i live in this forever 

for the moment

but suddenly i’m 20 and people i love tell me they’ll see me later

i can’t live in this forever

but i’ll see you later

and take this for free

and maybe just maybe just maybe

i’m okay with the fact