10/30/23: idk what to title this

yoyoyo im back 

still OBSESSED with 1989 taylors version i legit listened to slut on REPEAT

i had a really fun weekend!!! i went shopping with my stepmom mollie and we got skincare and makeup and a bunch of random shit from five below and we went to spirit halloween and i got this necklace i love love their jewlery and we redyed my hair and it looks great and matches my new eyeshadow!! me and mollie also watched the movie lady bird and i liked it a lot 

at the end of saturday tho one of my best friends decided they dont want to associate with me anymore, i dont wanna get into it bullitiened about it a little but i was really emotional and i couldnt sleep well. we have been really close for 2 years and its just all gone. she moved seats in one of the classes we have together so we havent even really talked but idk who im gonna sit with at lunch anymore. i might just go in the library and watch shameless on my phone which dosent sound too bad.

im not really hanging out with friends on halloween theyre all busy so im going trick or treating with my little brother, hes so cute in his tiger costume we got him. im being taylor swift for halloween obvi lol

just thinking about where i was last halloween is crazy, my world was so different a year ago its weird how much everything has changed. 

im losing face really...im losing friends and i feel like theres so many people at my school who have it out for me these days and theres so many rumors and drama all the time im tired of all of it

i want to try and make more online friends in general, i like all of my mutuals on here but i dont have any im super close with 

im gonna try and join some gaylor group thing bc i want queer swiftie friends lmfao

i miss what everything used to be like i was so happy last halloween now im just 

i dont even know

my birthdays is november 13 and i dont know if ill even have friends to have over for a sleepover or something anymore 

i really appreciate my stepmom mollie i feel like we just get eachother, our personalities mesh well together and we always have fun together