Too happy to be happy

Idk if I've mentioned it on here, but I'm in marching band,.

Today we had a comp at our rival school, and we got grand champ for our decision.

I was high on the glory from it, as we had been on a low streak for a while

and then out of nowhere I realized I might never be that happy again

and it just tanked my mood

so me being happy made me sad?

one moment I'm sad, the next I'm also one moment I'm sad, the next I'm also sad because happiness is sadness?

so I'm always doomed to be sad?

I know that isn't true, but damn it felt like that

just a rant, sorry