Day 18 of improving myself until I get a girlfriend

It's the moment youve all been waiting for. So without further ado, I'll just jump right into it.

I worked out almost as soon as I got home from school. Last time was painful and I kinda like it, not in the masochistic way but rather in the no pain no gain way. This time was just as painful though. I do a budget workout where I use heavy objects as weights.

After working out, I made myself a sandwich to fill that gap that is usually left between breakfast and dinner. It was just a pb and j, no big deal really.

I learnt more about Musashi the Samurai and I love the Samurai, they're so cool but unfortunately, I learnt more about his philosophy. I want to read some books about him. Also I said unfortunately because I do agree with his philosophy but it's often misinterpreted and I just think it would be cooler to read more about the Samurai stuff. We'll get into that at the end though.

I finally finished my review of Better Call Saul and it will be uploaded tomorrow. I'm having a friend proof read it first because I've seen the show and want to make sure that it is coherent to someone who hasn't. I'm really proud of it, it's about 2000 words. I spent the whole day writing it.

You wanna know the worst thing about today, I spent all evening getting all dolled up for this event and the reason why was because my teacher crush was gonna be there, only she wasn't and I came home and looked in the mirror and I looked so good for no reason.

I only managed to do a tiny bit of studying. I still need to get around to revising my chemistry. There's always tomorrow I guess.

I guess I was social today as well. I did go to an event so naturally I had to socialize and be aware of what I was saying as I was representing my school. 

Thanks for reading. To loop back around to the Musashi thing. I wanna talk about two big misconceptions about stoicism. Musashi is kinda seen as this ideal stoic to many and that's great and all but many people just want to suffer and seek it out to grow and get stronger but that's the misconception. I feel that instead of seeking out suffering, seek out new wisdom and new experiences in general, you will celebrate these experiences and you will also suffer through them. I'm just saying try to just step outside of your comfort, not for the sake of suffering but for the sake of learning. That's the big thing, you don't have to suffer to grow, you just need to expose yourself to everything you can. The 2nd big misconception is that you need to feel no emotion which can be dangerous, I often say that all emotions exist for a reason and we need to feel them all at certain points. If we don't feel these emotions then something might be wrong. Most people who become involved with stoicism seem to try to bottle up emotions which is unhealthy. Instead, it's about controlling your thoughts and emotions, knowing how to handle your emotions and knowing yourself and your own thoughts. A way to actually get on the path to becoming a stoic and controlling your thoughts and experiencing new things is to take every single opportunity and learn as much wisdom as you can and expose yourself to all sorts of knowledge and then you write your thoughts out, let your mind wander and explore crevices where it's never been. The more you practice this cycle, the easier it will be to control your thoughts.