i need to party hard-y

i cant take my medications in a way that matters

so i'll keep skipping classes and missing assignments

and saying i'm too sick to do anything about it

i did it to myself 

i went to the mixer for my major

i dont really have a major

i'll declare in a week or so before dropping out

i cant afford to go here without my scholarships

and theres no way to turn my grades around now

one of the alumni i saw shared that they didnt make any friends until senior year

i just made one today, so thats a win in my book

she said she was glad to finally meet someone in the same major

i told her i'd probably be gone by next semester

the mixer was too loud

i felt like crying the whole time so i took another depressant

my second of the night in less than half the time i'm supposed to wait between them

i still couldnt understand people

i spent the rest of the night staring at tables

and thinking about the concessions and how i cant let myself have any

i sat in my chair and didnt move unless asked

i think i kind of scared off my friend

but it doesnt really matter

i'll be gone from this city in 2 months