23/10/23 Disney headache and almost missed bus

First of all, met a prof from last year !! We talked a bit. Also I had to go on a journey cus I had to set the tables and the third was impossible to find lol 

Anyway

There shouldn't be a Bluetooth speaker in an art class controlled by the students. Cus guess what. They're art kids. They're obnoxious. Yes including me. They fucking started with Disney songs 

Which, I'm trying to focus on this fucking linocut I don't wanna fucking hear these songs, didn't saw them in my childhood, not trying to start now. And of course they fucking sing along. Then they just put old ytps of hp. Please stop. And ofc they talk and laugh like this is fucking recess. Like bro this is not never shutting the fuck up class. You're louddddd I can't hear the music in my headphonessss 

Fix your fucking volume. Then they put trash cringe songs made in like 2010

I don't wanna fucking hear a guy badly singing. Please. They continue with popular songs edited in "funny ways". And I feel like I'm getting a headache. They're still fucking harmonizing in all of this 

Then they go back to Disney shit and the only thing I wanna "let it go" is this pencil in my eardrums. 

Plus when my linocut was ready for inking, in the inking room there was Berry, and I was already irritated, I cannot stay in a small space without killing him in that situation

And I know what you might think oh you shouldn't feel all this fucking hate and you're right !! But I still feel it !! What I'm supposed to do !!! i hate his fucking guts !!! Sorry !! 3 fucking hours of class and he was in that room all 3

 mfer what? 

Anyway so when the prof checked on me I was like oh well there's lots of ppl there rn and idkkkk 

so ya imma print next week 

Anyway today I didn't drink a minster cus a few days there were some moments when my heart felt funky and idk if it's just my anxiety or monsters fucking up my cardiac stuff, so. And I was drainedddd after first class. Like could have been worse but it was baddd still yk 

So second class, with the map, I present my one n stuff and like. Somehow it took so much time I checked the phone and it was 45

The bus is at 48

Prof is still reviewing the work I'm like. Oh shit. I gotta go NOWWW

So get the last comments, I pack everything with the rule of "I'm gonna fucking lose my bus anything that has a pocket will be filled with a a random object"

I take everything, run outside 

I see the bus already starting again luckily the driver was a saint and he still stopped

And I do my first bus spitting what remained of my lungs

Get to the second bus stop, waiting. I see this random person going past me to the bus stop I was a few meters away to see the bus coming, then idk how much later this person goes again past me, stops, says smth along the lines "hi just wanted to say I like your style" and I got just the time to say thanks that they super speed walk away 

So where they? Actually waiting? For a bus? Cus then they just went away in a totally diff direction and disappeared so idk lol. 

I got to the train station n sit down

This one woman sits next to me and vapes and the fucking. Fumes go directly into my face

Suddenly I feel like I'm gonna die smelling fruity burnt plastic 

I survive she's like "does it bother you?" GIRL WHAT DO YOU THINK. TAKE A GUESS. I INHALED MORE NICOTINE THAN YOU RN. JUST SHARE AT THIS POINT. DAMN. 

I don't say this, I'm like no no 

Cus like. It's one of those things where you can answer just one way. Like you slightly bump into someone n u say oh sorry. What else are they gonna say outside of ",it's okay don't worry"? 

I couldn't say "stay 10 meters away from me you goofy fruity cigarette addict" yk

Ya that's ab it, see ya 

A ghost writing from its grave, signing off.