6.

so, its been a while since I wrote anything here. I don't know if there's actually anyone who'd read these, so I suppose I'll just apologize to myself for the lack of consistency.

Through the past days, a lot of changes happened, but at the same time, not much happened. Does that make sense? probably not. but that's the only way I can describe it briefly.

While all these things happens, my mind is still in the same state of mind. Stuck in a loop. I'm trying to change, at least I think so. Trying to talk more, take care of myself more.

But I need to have better memory, strategy of thinking, speech skills, have stronger intuition, be more grounded and not just stuck in a haze, etc. But I don't know how to.

Subject switch coming up.

With art, we're supposed to do it calmly i suppose. 

as Squidward Tentacles said; "You can't rush art"

but when you're anxious with deadlines coming up, it just makes things worse personally. I don't know how people can still draw so perfectly 9 minutes before deadline or some shit. Maybe it's just a skill issue. I don't know. Just gonna try to improve .

This is the end of some random kid's brain vomit.