october 13. 2023

happy friday the 13th !!!!!!! at work we are all dressing up for every day in october but i havent  seen that movie so il just try to do that big goth eye makeup and wear my normal clothes so that way i did something extra.

if i had the mask id just do a cute ponytail bun thing and throw it on top of my head (kiriko from overwatch isnt a good example but shes the only name i can think of rn lol) and maybe find a flannel but i dont wanna borrow one from work bc if it breaks i have to pay for it.

im also gonna be prepping tn i have an interview for an asm job tmw that is the one i wasnt allowed to apply for before and now i get the chance im very excited.

also some life thoughts 

i have this like very deep very cold darkness in me. maybe it makes me bad and maybe it makes me evil but its a part of me. its amazing that we can feel like this. so amazing we are alive in the first place with the ability to hurt and be in pain. i love the darkness in me. 

the only thing i have is my heart full of love for everyone and i never show it bc its embarrassing so when i get drunk i start showing it bc it gets hard to hold in but then i just end up more embarrassed. but sy said to me do u think ancient greeks embarrassed themselves by getting drunk and confessing love or holding hands or hugging ???? no !!! being love is all we have