i am doing the damn thing

currently ~ making buldak carbonara while it drizzles outside

i don't think i registered how much this week has been considering i had other things going on that made it a lot easier to deal with the difficult stuff, but i am taking this moment to be grateful for myself and my abilities and how i have managed to take care of myself so far. i got my period like 2 days ago and that's been hell, and i've been adjusting to new meds and mentally hyping myself up/preparing for my clinical tomorrow (cue nervous screaming), and i'm mildly sick again. so i think i'm allowed to cut myself a little slack, my god.

saw a post that said something along the lines of "many people have done what you are doing way worse and been just fine" and that has really propelled me to feel confident in my iv skills and just constantly reminding myself that this is my time to learn. if it's not perfect nothing horrible is going to happen, and i will move on with my life. i want to see if i can actually enjoy myself and not just "get through it" because that was my previous mindset on clinicals and i don't think it helped at all! so here's to feeling excited and ready to learn and grow even more. and resting and taking care of myself too :)

tunez ~ big one by flyana boss