health

ive been having some heart pains for about a month now and ive decided to tell my mother. she obviously made me go through all types of doctors and when they finally figured out the cause it was actually something that ive had my whole life. i was honestly kind of dissapointed. not because i wanted it to be something bad or deadly. after the doctor concluded everything me and my mom went outside and i couldnt hold back my tears. i was mumbling something like why was i born like this, what did i do to deserve this kind of life and everything is my bodys fault. i said that if i could i probably would chose to not be born if i knew that my body would turn out to be wrong. my mother reassured me that everything could be fixed with a simple operation. i asked her if it was worth it. she looked at me with a confused face. i asked again and added that it would be expensive. that its not worth it and my condition made my parents spend lots and lots of money. it probably would be easier if i went and died somewhere quiet far far away and my parents wouldnt worry about my health or how theyre going to pay for my medications. my mother was upset. i realised that i made her sad with my words and apologised. she probably really cares about me and those words were too much for her. i love her and i want whats best for her. if she tells me to live then i will. its the least i can do for her. i will probably get a surgery in autumn next year. the moral of the story is dont measure your life in money. its priceless and means a lot more to people around you than some coins. you can get back the amount of money that youve spent but you cant bring back someone whose precious to you