Don't Ask For Help

I feel insane

Wanting to cause others pain

I reach out for help

Just to be left by myself

This anger boils inside of me

Nothing can set me free

Trapped within angers chains

Dwelling on all my pains

Hating myself

Wishing I was someone else

Not knowing what to do

Wishing I was happy too

I blame myself for every fault

Wishing my pain would come to a halt

Hating myself and hating my feelings

Laying down watching the ceiling

Wondering if I'm dreaming

I'm about to start screaming

Internalizing every word

Every bad thing I've ever heard

Inching closer to my death

I wish I was like the rest.