no better than your heads only medicine

ive caught a stomach bug and the fever is the ache in my chest and the cough is the mind numbing small talk of im okay thanks for asking yeah school is going well i still play guitar i do take lessons now yeah oh well i guess ive been tired really tired if im honest but its mostly apathy so its whatever right if im not sad then well i guess its okay im just sick of needing a drink and how good the burn is yeah no im doing great though thank you yeah just fine dont worry its okay and the pills took me in their arms but stabbed me in the back and clawed my chest open to smile down at my flayed corpse and i lay in bed and make excuses and i keep telling everyone that its just a cold ill get better soon and the whole time i wonder if im trying to convince them or myself.