middle school was one of the darkest periods of my life. i don't have many memories from back then but most of the memories I do have are sad.
I didn't know how to interact with people back then, so for a while, I was sitting alone,
I don't remember how, but I ended up being friends with 2 other people who also seemed to be pretty anti-social
we'd always sit next to each other by the school wall away from all the other people and talk about random stuff and draw, one of them was a guy I don't remember the name of who was really slow (not trying to be mean) and the other was a girl named Sam (Sammy wammy)
she ended up being my first crush.
i remember one time there was an assembly, I don't remember what the assembly was about but i remember she wanted me to sit next to her, but I couldn't find her before we had to sit down so we ended up alone.
one day she told me she had to move soon (she and I were in foster care so we couldn't keep in contact with each other) so I told her I'd bring her a Mountain Dew.
she ended up being gone the next day though so I never got to give her that Mountain Dew, ill have to give her one if i ever see her again
after that the other guy sort of disappeared to so i ended up being alone again for a while.
then someone invited me to play kickball with him and his friends so i ended up doing that.
i didn't say anything for a while i just played kickball.
but thanks to them i got a little better a talking to people and even made some more friends
one of them was a girl named lexi, we met in math class and study hall.
she'd listen to me nerd out about stuff and id listen to her problems and we'd sometimes draw together.
she was really depressed and self-harmed a lot, i wish there was something i could've done to help her more than just listen to her.
one day in study hall she held my hand, it was nice :)
one day she disappeared too though. i hope nothing bad happened to her
i remember on graduation day everyone family showing up and i was sort of just there
i wish i could remember more