[tarot] Delulu love read

I asked about her. I wanted to know how she thinks about me or how it will go, I don't know. We blossom as friends, so I can't imagine how better would our relationship be, were I lucky enough to be able to hold her hands one day.

Anyway, the general life reading was grim, with a strong emphasis on taking time for myself. Alongside the infamous "the tower" card, i expected little. I was tired. I expect bad news. I sighed, didn't even focus my energy, and shuffled my card for the love reading.

Two cards fell out immediately. I flipped them up. They were the lovers and the empress. I waved my hand and said to myself: "no way..."

I shuffled for the last card, and it was 10 of cups. I'm still in awe of how so overwhelmingly positive the cards are being. I feel like a sinner for saying, despite having my own tarot deck and reading tarots on occasions, I don't trust the readings. If it turned out to be real, I would give it credit, but I don't put a second thought into it otherwise.

My personal tarot readings however, turned out to be SO on point on many occasions, regardless of how much I try to be impartial about it. If only this read would turn out to be true also later on...

Well, one thing about my deck is that, it's square. There is a chance for me to have sideways cards. and all of the cards this time were sideways. there is no online guide to this, but personally i believe these cards to show either uncertainty, chances of different results or a combination of the main two directions. It is especially true due to the relationship being in a sensitive position - I could end the friendship here and advance or lose a close friend. The uncertainty, or the possibility of two endings, hit too close to home.