My Feelings Pt.1

I don't know if I feel obligated to love you, 

Because of everything you have done for me, 

Or because, 

I just can't seem to erase the people you were to me, 

They way you used to treat me, 

I feel in a way, 

I still haven't adjusted to this change of treatment. 

I was special to you once...

Wasn't I?

It would soothe some of the thoughts if I knew at some point, 

Even just a little bit, 

You felt I was the only one you felt was special. 

Maybe then, 

I could move on. 

I could grow up.

I could heal.