SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder)

context: I have very severe SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder) to the point it is debilitating & I need an emotional support animal (don’t have one yet unfortunately)

Well today I had to something (go in a room with a student teacher and talk to her about something, which everyone had to do) well I panicked and didn’t know what to say and just ended it as soon as possible and I thought “oh I’ll be fine I’ll be fine, it’s over” but I got told I had to do another. 

So I started to freak out and I lost it I started crying and hyperventilating and panicking and just losing it and trying to keep everything contained but I just couldn’t so I ran to the bathroom and sobbed the rest of the hour rocking back and forth trying to self soothe and control myself but I just wasn’t able to until it class was over and a new class started was when I finally was able to quit crying and panicking and leave the bathroom.

I now feel absolutely shitty, I feel drained and tired, I feel weak like I’m sick, I wouldn’t doubt it if that whole episode weakened my immune system it’s happened before. But yeah now my whole body is just aching and it only does that when I’m sick/getting sick and etc. 

:( I just want to go home and lay in a nice dark cold room and sleep, I feel absolutely awful