i tried

i hate hate hate how i tried so so hard to get out there n make friends. i just rotted away in my room for so long. but i wanted to get better. i made my first ever friend group a few months ago n got a bf who was in it. 

he was amazing and soso sweet and i wanted to be around him always. i got physical affection for basically the first time ever in my life and it was amazing and i felt so safe in his arms. i got along so well w the two girls and we all lived together. they introduced me to new music and shows and for once i actually had felt like i belonged

then those two girls last week spread some terrible lies abt me and convinced him to break up w me. it's so not fair i miss him but nothing will ever be the same anymore :( how am i ever meant to trust people again??

back to rotting away in my bedroom alone i guess..