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I'm struggling to hold connections or space with people. It isn't fair to anyone that I'm always in pain or tired. ( I just don't want anyone to deal with my bullshit..)
Taking that choice away from them, before they can make it is really fucked up. I know.
But, I'd much rather it be that way so I can just deal with this loneliness and my disabilities myself.
I don't even like bothering my wife or gf about this. ( Even though they tell me all the time that I can come to them whenever I need anything.)
I just don't want to feel like I'm a burden.
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Mig and Szwarty
If they enjoy spending time with you, its not a burden for them. If you're doing your best to stay independent and active in the lives of others and show your appreciation for them sticking by your side, then I'm sure they're happy to struggle through to be beside you. Best thing you can do is to focus on living your best life not only for them but also for yourself.
Also OP it was very rude of me and I dont know if you are willing to share but in what way are you disabled, I feel that it was rude of me to give you such advice without knowing your situation.
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I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, polycystic ovarian syndrome, Bipolar Disorder, severe anxiety and depression.
I appreciate the question and kindness. I tend to come on here and vent, as no where else seems safe enough anymore - aside from reddit and sometimes tumblr. But even then tumblr is slowly going defunct.
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