09.03.23

Today i awoke with a question that lingered through me last night. 11:59. Mathematics, my future. What conditions will define who i will be. Caves and the ocean. Either one or both? Will i follow in my fathers footsteps? How would he feel about that? Maps and Mathematics. 

If my dog were to die, would i get a new one right away? Would that be acceptable? Can i not mourn whilst gaining another. A dog is a crutch. To mourn a dog whilst functioning my everyday would cripple me. Am i not allowed to lean on a new thing to keep me standing? Whilst mourning my last? I think i can. But would i be able to be good to it? I would want to be good to it.