08.26.23

I'm so stressed. School starts in two days and nothing feels right. Nothing feels right. I don't feel prepared at all. I want to run away, i want to live with my grandparents and do online school. I don't want to talk to anyone, i don't want to go anywhere. I want a day off before school starts and i feel i cant even have that. Fuck i just hit my piercing, that fucking hurts. I know ill have to pull an all nighter before school starts so everything's in order. Nothing feels fucking right, my hair doesn't feel fucking right, my face is ugly and my brows look horrible. Nothings perfect. And on top of all of this, our teachers will take away our phones as soon as we step foot into the classrooms. Kill yourself. I'm so upset. I don't want to be fucking late again this year, its an embarrassment-- but i know i will be. God i just want to leave. I don't have dreams anymore.