entitled

I look around me and see the voices that stand for their well being, while I sit and ponder about the enclosed thoughts I will be shunned if I were to share. Other opinions matter but my own will get me in trouble. One word I say and I will be put down, torn apart, and thrown into the nonsense of just words. Why is it everyone around me can be so entitled to their speech and remain outspoken, while I stay under this roof listening to the guidance that tells me I am wrong to do so if I speak from my own mind. How is it fair that those who guide you are entitled to tell you what's right and what's wrong. But a simple thought that is slightly different will cause distance. Even being of age, and figuring out what's in store will get me in trouble if I don't tiptoe around those that control the household. How will I ever please those around me if my views are different from the expectation of my household? How will I ever feel at peace if I feel trapped within myself and what I know is best for myself and those around me. Although diversity and equality have spread so much, it seems that there's still a minority that feels they need to hold onto grudges and held on beliefs that effect relationships, and even how a child is raised. Why should we feel obligated to believe a certain way just because of how we were raised upon? Why should we feel this obligation to be a certain way because it is what we believe is expected of us? Why can't I be my own person without someone correcting my beliefs in this so called "free country"? I want to think for myself and feel free, however, I am stuck feeling the only way I will be accepted within my own loved ones is if I portray to their mindsets.