I don't dream of labor

I feel so empty-headed. If I'm not in school to get my degree and earn myself some money, then the only other option is to work some soulless job I hate and have a life where I know I won't be happy (bro am I even happy now???). The only thing I think can save me rn is a sugar daddy (a dilf). This Is The Way. Or maybe just to have someone to take care of me. it's the only solution. maybe like a lil simp that'll pay everything for me, and I just have to sit there and look pretty. At least I'm good at looking pretty. All I've ever wanted to do in life is look pretty and not worry about money, especially rn considering my mom lost her job. I've just always wanted the luxury of being able to wear pretty outfits, hold someone's arm, and look up at them while batting my lashes. It's what I need. Just to be someone's eye candy, not worry about a place to call home, and only worry about whose chest I get to lay my pretty head on. I need some rich man to save me, I stg I need to live that life of how those Lana Del Rey songs make me feel.

But no, I just had to grow up in poverty and I just have to work for everything I want instead of some man coming in to magically save me from all my problems. 

fuck this. I don't dream of this life I call my own. 

I don't dream of labor.