Is it sick season? TW!!

Everybody, including me, has been getting sick lately. So instead of studying, i have just been resting and playing minecraft with some of my digital “friends“ on discord. 
I am SOOOOOO going to fail. 

Been thinking about ending myself a few times recently again. Shit has been pretty tough ever since that breakup with Ronnie, but i am doing much much better so i feel like i am not justified of feeling shitty. It might be since i stopped taking my meds cold turkey, but honestly i remember feeling way worse on them than off them. I just wish i could dissapear, totally alone in a void, just chilling and doing whatever the fuck i want. I'm so goddamn lonely.

I wanna do the serial experiments lain shit and just live in my PC. That would be cool.