I need to vent..

Whelp, after sleeping for nearly a day and a half. I'm awake and will be doing more homework on my condition.

What's the reason, aside from needing to be knowledgeable about the thing that has been crippling me slowly for years?

Yesterday, I felt weak and like I couldn't breathe. I told my partner, ( who used to work in nursing ) what I was feeling and she explained that it was a side effect of my fibro.

Due to the change in air pression, the humidity and storms all day I was having serious issues with a bad flare up. So I took my afternoon meds and laid down.

It sucked. I had trouble settling, and then finally passed out.

I learned before then that fibro causes a myriad of issues, one being that I will never enter rem sleep. I won't get restful sleep like everyone else, I'll just get whatever I can.

It's why she wanted me to take 2 hour rests, or naps. My wife wants me to listen to that, and take rests. But I don't really do anything much these days.

I clean occasionally, it's just washing dishes and cleaning up the kitchen. But I suppose that's a lot for someone that's disabled. I have to be mindful and use the "spoon method".

It just upsets me. I used to push through and be able to do so much, now I'm limited. It's like watching a well oiled machine slowly break down...

I feel disheartened and upset.

All I have now are my books, and my games. My art has fallen to the wayside due to burnout. I want to get back to it, but I'm exhausted with creating.

I miss it though,..

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