08 | the inner teenage girl is dry heaving

I feel so empty when there isn't something or someone to obsess over.

I was an anime fanatic in late middle school and early high school, then kpop from mid high school till maybe a couple months ago. I still love both but the sense of community I had with others in the fandom is gone. kpop is a deeper rooted love but I can't talk to ppl about it.

maybe it's because I hate Twitter now, and I'm not active on anything besides this and instagram. idk. not into celebrity worship.

I have no hobbies anymore. I journal like biweekly, my computer can't handle video games anymore, and I'm tired of helping ppl learn English for free.

ive just been watching car crash compilations and listening to a podcast about financial auditing. i feel like a 38 year old man. 

I'm going back to school soon but I'm just gonna be filling my free time with work if I can get a job.

life is feeling boring at the moment. if life beyond college is like this then I don't wanna live past that era.