Day 1

I feel very... weird. My doctor started to decrease my medication and told me that I no longer have depression. I know that it's a good thing, but I feel bad about it. I feel like now that I'm almost healthy no one will find me interesting, or that all my needs won't matter anymore. I also feel so empty without all this sadness. It feels like a part of me died. I guess beating depression was my only goal, and now that I made it I no longer have purpose...

I also feel lonely because now that I moved to UK I have no friends at all. Nobody talks to me anymore and the only people I can annoy is my family. Now, it's going to sound weird but... I miss Ollie, my ex best friend. We used to be so happy together. They were the only one who would listen to me... they didn't care about my feelings, and did terrible things to me, but I still want them back. I will never find someone as good as them. Never.