how was i today

haloo spacehey people, so, this is kinda of an update.
today nothing really happened. i tried doing my animation again, drew a few frames, and that's it. i still dont find interest in things.

well, today i just played tf2 again, this game jsut sucks me in and drains me sometimes. but i dont really have anything else to play. 

or i start talking with freinds, and end up doing nothing.

i dunno, i just dont know what to do right now.

and to add to all of my problems, it's already august..
AND I'M SCARED OF HOW FAST IT'S GOING! SCHOOL WILL START SOON. and... and it's not gonna be good.

im going into the 9th grade, and im leaving school after that. but fuuck, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE AFTER! and, honestly im scared of it.
no matter how much my freinds tell me "man, its gonna be fine." or "dude, just relax and dont worry"
well, easy for you to say.

im still (kinda) trying to find something that could let me have fun online again, but... i sometimes really really feel like giving up on... on fucking everything. lately i didnt had ANY creativity, and it just kills me.

like, im still trying not to hate myself, but somehow i always end up blaming myself for everything and any thing that i couldnt do a thing, but still feel bad.

i'll write tomorrow how i feel or what have done, maybe that'll help somehow. maybe i'll be naming these after the day i wrote this in. who knows

i dont know how to end this.. eh, i dunno, vent post i guess.
soo... i still hope youre having/had a great day (or whenever you're reading this.)

uwu <----- he's here just for fun. say hello to Uwoi at least. yeah, as always, great name me