I feel hopeless

Constantly managing my body's ever-growing list of problems is wearing on me. I don't know how to hold myself together physically while I'm drowning mentally.

It's too much. I'm tired.

But I don't get to rest. Not when I'm disabled.

It never stops.

Sleep isn't my friend. I'm being kept awake at all hours due to severe pain in my arm. I have tried my lidocaine patches, and it's barely helping.

My gabapentin isn't really helping, and the dose has been raised. But I won't see effects for another two weeks.

So, I have to call my Doctor in the morning so I can try to see if I can be seen. Because this pain is getting worse and I cannot handle it for much longer.

I feel like I'm going insane.