🌎𝚆𝙷𝙰𝚃𝙽𝙾𝚃- 𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍

The summer evenings are getting colder, it is these times when everything seems more empty than usual in my solitude, I wish I could enjoy this weather back on campus- and sit in the window and think, laughter echoing between the building complexes, the purr of flashy cars zipping down the road, the faint smell of tobacco, for the longest time I've been quite the liar about hating the smell of smoke- I would never smoke personally, but the scent is quite pleasant, mixed with my own perfume- it smells like Mom's. The fragrance she uses is expensive- but part of me wants to get a bottle for myself one day. 

I've been trying to talk to this guy I met on a dating app, but I find myself time and time again wanting to be alone, it's hard to form relationships when you aren't bumping into the person regularly- at least I find it so. I am a silly woman with a profound enjoyment of being alone, if I am to form a relationship- I need someone to greatly conflict it. I don't think it's unusual to want someone to be involved in your life before forming a connection.

I'm hoping to make good money this year, but with the costs of my personal costs rising as I am more aware of my needs and wants- it is becoming... difficult... I stick to a hard and fast rule- no purchases over 100$ until 1000$ is saved, the money made after can be used for the purchase and the process repeats. I will be transferring to the location near my college, so I hope to make more by staying employed the entire year- very much looking forward to the holiday rush- while the work will be heavy I can take care of holiday expenses with less worry.

I've grown a liking to ornamental hairpins, while the idea of cutting my hair short still tempts me, a pretty pin is just as tempting, my styles never cease to conflict me and often I cannot cater to all of them-

-Sentient