how lain, pewdiepie and 25g of pot lead me into psychosis

I was in a bad place in 2018. I dropped out of college and downloaded RISEN (2009) on my PC, two decisions that I regret deeply. I used to smoke pot just about everyday. And watch pewdiepie also everyday.

At that time, I felt very enlightened (I was too stressed and under the influence of too much THC), so I believed random and irrevelant things were related. For example: I would see a red motorcycle and believe that it was an omen.

And that every time I saw a red motorcycle it meant I was inside a simulation. And you're going to ask, how did it start? how did lain and pewdiepie lead you into it? well, somehow, I saw azazel being mentioned in one of his videos. And one of my friends at the time said the word azazel, which lead me into a state of paranoia. 

Coincidences used to make me cry. Something similar happened with lain, but I don't remember it exactly. Yeah, thanks for reading!!