quick venttttt

hey guysss its been a long time, remember all that stuff ab me wanting to be pretty? well i think its paying off, ive rlly gotten into looksmaxxing and subliminals. massages, skincare, exercising. im doing everything. ive lost some face fat and my nose has depuffed. i just wanna prove evryone wrong. everyone whos said i was too skinny, anyone who called my hair "witch hair" well look at my hair now bitches, everyone says it looks like i rlly take care of it. i dont want revenge, none of that. i just want ppl to love me. i just wanna be lovable for once in my life and i want ppl to take me seriously. :( i just wanna be on top of the world. i want a better life full of opportunities. i do enjoy the life i have, but man my parents are always busy so they never rlly talk to me. im rlly shy in school and dont rlly have friends, i only have one real friend. i rlly appreciate them. but i always suck at talking to new ppl, and i come off as rlly weird. im quiet, avoid eye contact and always walk with my head down. the only reason someone talks to me is to make me the butt of their joke and laugh ab it with their little friends. im a person too :/ why is it that when a guy talks to me he only wants sex? idk, i could have a decent life but the reason i dont is because of myself. one thing that rlly hurt me one time is that i got called to the school office for something and a guy said "oh no she probably made a school threat" as a joke,  like what? :( just for once i want ppl to look at me differently i dont wanna be a joke.