How it starts

I never thought of suicide

It never crossed my mind

Till I was sitting all alone

Not a friend, not a home

Not a single person to say

"Honey, please, just live today"

I tried my best to push it back

But I couldn't fight, and that's a fact

Just a pill, or two, or three

Soon I'm buckling at the knees

Getting yelled at by you

"What were you thinking? What did you do?"

Soon my arguing comes to a hault

As you say it's all my fault

Trying hard not to cry

All I want to know is why

She couldn't care

About my despair

Even though I try to be tough

I know I could never be enough.