6 months after all of this..

I won't be able to post as much as I used to for obvious reasons. Today I don't feel like I'm suffering. I feel hopeful and have things to look forward to. As embarrassing as this is, I've never completed highschool but I only have 3 credits left so I'm going to use this time to get my education together (on Monday I'm going to step foot into a high school to speak with a counselor. Eugh) and figure out a way to learn a trade so I can have a career and not end up working at a shitty dinky job barely able to take care of my kid once they're born. I wanna be somebody and rely on myself one day. I don't wanna be a loser bum. I currently live with my Mother. I just left a psychiatric hospital a day ago so I'm taking this weekend to relax and build the strength to get what I need done. I'm gonna go watch TV now, even though I said I don't watch TV. I'll find something interesting.