GIVE IT UP FOR DAY-

oh right, I forgot to update yesterday so I can't make that joke

Anyways, it's day 14 my dudes. I have come to accept that this is my new normal, and my family and I had a discussion today about what that means for all of us going forward. I am attempting to be honest about my feelings when I say:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA /neg

there's just a lot of grief. lot's of tears. I am so privileged to live with family that cares for me well. I do not take that for granted. it's still hard, even with good support. because I am 26 years old and have zero independence. I have to have help with everything, even using the bathroom and showering. so I have very little privacy as well. it's hard. disabled people deserve care, and dignity as well. my family gives me that to the best of their ability, but there's only so much dignity one can have when your mom has to scrub you in the shower.

I am glad to have this space where I can talk about all this to the void in a sense, if someone else reads it and feels less alone, then awesome. 

I'm gonna start ending these by saying what song is playing in my headphones as I write. today it's the song "Old Regalia's Hidden School For the Magically Impaired" by Kyle Stibbs <3

~Silvey~