away from everyone

realized that like ya. i wont ever be able to have a significatn friendship because of how i am. and for the same reasons ill never have a relationship either + im ace so the chances are even slimmer. like sometimes i wanna be a bit away from myself. it's how i know nobody coudl really handle this mess. and i could never be able to hold people the right way and take care of them in a healthy way. so im kind of stuck in loneliness that its. self made. but with a damning deep yearning for friends and relationships and people and care and shit. fucking hell.