crushes..love life!

i wanna have a crush on someone. its been so long! i wanna feel some butterflies ykwim? plus most of my friends r in relationships and on one hand im kinda jelly but on the other half of yall seem miserable LMAO. emilly and nev are adorbbsssss tho i die for them together. i have little crush moments, like when i see yall-know-who in the halls. he really has phenomenal facial structure. and hes so sweet. and so, so dumb. i lurve him. but im bored! i want to be totally fixated on someone. i forget what it feels like, im at like over 2 years since ive felt like that. a girl needs some excitement in her life! i know you cant force it but id really like to. oi.