recently ive been streaming & i think its been helping with my mood. its still hard to take care of myself but gaming & talking w friends & talking to chatters is so fun & i dont feel as lonely anymore. i just wish i had more irl friends atp. i wish i could physically hangout w ppl. one of my online friends invited me to some parties bc i said i was interested & ill try to see if i can actually go, but i think itll be hard since she lived 3+ hrs away from me >.< which SUCKS btw. i need ppl that live @ MOST an hr away from me bc i want to be a little parasite friend. when im in a normal headspace i remind myself that ppl will put up w a lot so i can be “annoying” (im probably not that annoying) & they wont do anything like what ive imagined in a worst case scenario @ all. but when im in a rly bad headspace its hard to think like that bc im alone & basically isolate myself. anyways, im rly trying, im juss so low energy these days bc i barely move (i genuinely dont have a lot of muscle anymore bc of this ). welp, ill update my blog once i feel something again
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Clerical Heretic
It's important to appreciate the small steps toward whatever goals you want. Good on you for finding ways to express and communicate, and just remember that it gets better. Not immediately, mind you, but it gets better