i'm crushed.

i've had a pretty big crush on this girl in my class for a couple years now, she has the prettiest eyes and she's just so freaking cute and i found out she was queer at a party we both were at back in like 2021... anyways i finally got the courage to ask her on a date this yr and we just had it yesterday and i completely blew it. i was so nervous and thrilled to just be talking to her that i ended up rambling and going off on tangents (which is not like me, btw, i tend to be very chilled out/mellow when i'm comfortable) and she probably felt like i was just talking over her the whole time. i was an idiot and didn't realize she was purposely cutting the date short until later that night when i reflected on the whole thing. ugh. i hate having crushes because i can't keep my cool. she said she's cool with being friends and so am i but at the same time i feel like she's kind of trying to get rid of me :( i literally drew her and made a playlist about her 😭 this stings guys

but also i know i'm still super cute and cool and i can't wait to find the person who will appreciate my eagerness/enthusiasm!!!!