june 28. 2023

hiiii im back!!!!!!!!!

i guess i have a lot to catch up on... ive been pretty busy.

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i spent like 8 hours this week picking and downloading music onto my phone. my spotify duo partner cancelled on me again ( for the last time ) and it took it away immediately. i only had 100 songs downloaded onto my flip so i added abt 200 more so i can listen to more than one genre. 

the playlists are named "dad rock" "emo" "hot" "hyper" "jpn" "kpop" "love letter" "sadtime" w the cutest emojis ever. this phone has fully custom emoijis they r so cute and colourful. it also has ascii emojis built into the keyboard too!!!

switching from my smartphone has been almost 8 months or so in the making. im saving a ton of money on my phone bill and im like 1000 times more present. its not perfect ofc and sometimes i spend a few hours on social media a day. when i do i feel soooo much worse so im really trying not to do that. its easier with my am meds so i can focus on other things. 

technology has totally rotted my brain and most other ppls too. we werent meant to progress so far. society shouldnt have developed to the point where u are fed content thru a tiny screen every waking hour of ur life. u should be able to be exclusive abt who contacts u. not everyone needs to know ur number and an instagram dm shouldnt be an emergency.

ive kiiinda met someone!! i say kinda bc we actually already knew each other but i didnt know where from so when they told me i helped train them at a job i had in 2018 i was pretty surprised that weve actually known of each other for that long. 

we spent a ton of time together and they even took me to a cool invite only backyard music thing that was so fun. they have really made coming back to this town tolerable. or good i guess.

my moods been pretty good but i have been feeling super out of it constantly dissociating and unable to think or listen to anything. i couldnt figure out why until i realized it has been almost a week since i took my am meds. i didnt realize how much they helped but i took them today and im focused and alert enough. its not perfect but its definitely better. 

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song of the day - using you - mars argo