no loud noises

I hear ringing in my ears

the screams of the dead

the child in me that died.

tonight 

4:42

a huge boom.

was it a bomb?

the loudest thunder I've ever heard?

an explosion?

It frightened me at first.

Then my first thought:

was that my fault?

It's scary not knowing

if that was real or not.

I see worm-like creatures slithering on the floor

and I close my eyes and I see

stories and pages of people

their lives flashed before my eyes.

It felt like a gift.

Now all is left is a black rectangular box

like the movie is over.

Who's scraping and clawing at the walls?

I've lost you.

I will find you again.