follow up: "my bad"

i was a bit dramatic lol

no, maybe not. when i wrote that blog entry, i really was hurting really badly. and everything i wrote is still kinda true.

the thing that got me to write that was that my partner wasn't there for me. i went to work yesterday after we didn't really talk to each other in the morning. i talked about what happened with my new fav coworker (we're both mentally unstable) and decided to act like an adult for once and COMMUNICATE.

communicating is scary. but i did and felt much better after we talked it through. turns out we both were in a bad place mentally when i had my panic attack and there was a lot of miscommunication. he thought i wanted to be left alone. after all, he can't read my mind if i don't tell him what i need. but he also didn't communicate what he felt at that moment which is why i thought he just left me alone.

i'm better now. a bit anxious, but just the normal amount lol. i have to work again today. i don't want to -_-