What’s wrong w me?

Their perception of him and his mind are very different from each other and he can never tell if either r right. The voice screams at him saying everything he does is wrong, he’s scared he messed everything up w/o realizing, he cry’s over the simplest things and can’t seem to figure out how he feels, if there’s a real reason why he’s feeling like this. So gross and disgusting, everyone tried to picture what’s wrong and find solutions but none are true. His mind is always right it says, “u don’t need others” he thinks. he never knows how he feels. Or if this feeling isn’t coming from him? He laughs and tries to uphold his ‘terrific image’ to try and convince people he’s ok, he’s happy and safe. But is that what he really wants, to feel happy? Can he do that? He wants to feel normal and present. The sorrow is comforting, his crying and the sensations of being hurt, it makes him feel real.