i can still feel the warmth depleting from your body

this is a rant i wrote in my notes a few days after my sweet boy mochi died 

s love again i want to be comforted by his purrs i want to pet him and give him hugs i wanna see him sitting somewhere and feel compelled to take a picture i want to hear his chirps and meows from my bed i wanna enjoy the sunshine outside with him i wanna nap on the couch with him i want my cat back please if there is a god out there take me instead i cant bear to be without him i want my cat back please why did i let them take him my sins now haunt my every waking moment i cannot rest without seeing your lifeless face i just want my cat back please i don't think i'll ever forgive myself for letting them take you mochi please come back to me please i can't do this without you please please please please please what do i have to do to get you back i'll do anything please give me back my cat we didn't get to finish our time together we only had 3 years it wasn't enough mochi i need you please how is the earth still spinning how are people still talking you are gone you need to come back please forgive me mochi please i cant bare to have you mad at me i should have stopped them i should have ran off with you and never looked back i need you please just come back to me why didn't i spend every waking moment of our time together with u i was so selfish if i only knew how little we had left i would have never let you go so easily please come back please forgive me please i need you