To bandaid

There is so much I want to tell you, but it's not going to change anything.  So I will put this into the universe and let it go. 

We had an understanding, fwb, then you start calling me baby, mama, and sweetheart.  Then one night you tell me you love me. Ice been healing for 2 years and I decided to open up and date you. We had an extremely intimate night one night. I mean the other nights were just wild amazing sex... that night we truly connected (or so I thought) two days later you tell me you need time to get your shit together.  So I backed off. Now I'm more confused as to how you can love someone, who has only been there for you (no fighting), to just walk away. 

I really feel used and stupid.  Now I'm back to keeping to myself.  Thanks for nothing