suspicious minds

dear z, 

i hope you forgive any clerical or grammatical mistakes i might make in this one, i just downed half my flask & have put on the soundtrack to grease & as i was reading through the posts i've made on this little blog, i've noticed the alarming trend of the amount of time i spend wigging about juniper's relationship to her ex. z, i am writing this to clarify the thoughts i have not properly made clear before: i do not worry anymore about whether or not i am more important to juniper than her ex. yes, i do on occasion worry about her ex's intention & thoughts & feelings, but i am not worried about juniper. she has told me she is completely over her, and i believe her, and i truly, genuinely do not worry about it. 

i listened to the other woman by nina simone a lot & cried, and then i listened to suspicious minds & i got over it. juniper & i worked through our initial problems, and we now have good communication for any more that arise (as they surely will) & we send letters & i just burned her some cds & she calls me when she gets off work & when she running errands & i call her when i'm in the store & when i'm crocheting that fucking afghan.

thank you for always listening, z

all my love, 

lola