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(again) i love him but the past few weeks ive been thinking of breakups.. not breaking up with him but just breakups in general. I really really realllyyyyyyy do love him but in terms of mental health hes just so much more worse than me... when we talk its more frustating than fun... and half the' time everytime i talk to him he ALWAYS ALWAYS responds with "sorry i dont know how to reply" like ? ? ? are you serious ? I always try to put in the effort of communicating when it comes to us beacuse he cant communicate for shit and no communication = RELATIONSHIP FALLING APART !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everytime we argue hes always SO OBVIOUSLY upset and not to mention so fucking passive aggresive and its so fucking annoying. you do that shit to me and yet when I do it im the bad guy?!! i love him but talking to him is like how i have to talk to my parents, and thats having to walk on eggshells all the damn time. Cuz 1 thing i do leads to him ignoring me or getting mad at me all because i said something that i had NO idea would upset him. how ridiculous is that ?!?!?!?! and back to the topic of arguing, eveyrtmme we'd argue the FIRST thing he'd do is go onto twitter and complain and cry about how "we're over" and he didnt even take the time to fucking talk to me before coming to that conclusion.. but. of course i have to be the one whos considerate because hes the one whos mentally ill with bpd... is it so wrong to be frustrated with your significant other even IF their mental illness gives me a reason why they act like that ? relationships are such... a pain... i wouldnt say im the best girlfriend ever sincce im also pretty ridiculous (ex: not saying ily all the time, being selfish) but gosh.. .. i just need some time to understand my own feelings towards him... i love him i do but... if these feelings change from love into something else then i dont want to lead him on ... i'll update on whatever the outcome will be.
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pako_
it sounds like hes bored/doesnt like u anymore but hes attatched, but anyway u should talk to him about it or leave him cz u have 2 b the baddie u were born 2 b yk
nonoo i ii if anything he likes me a little too much but hes just really re a lly bad with communicating.. ill try to talk to him more often instead of being stubborn though ! but then again the baddest bitches dont need anyone . . .
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TGnostic
Have you asked him or has he tried dbt and shit like that? Also you do not need to say ILY eberytime for your partner to know they love you, personally it has been super useful for me in my relationships to come to terms with that. They're just saying goodbye over the phone etc instead of I love you because they trust they can say it again later. It is always a good reminder.
That's what I'd suggest since you seem you want to be with him but struggle with his health which is completely okay it happens, if they struggle with their bpd you are going to to and that doesn't make either of you a villain. You love them and you love yourself too and you're just wanting to find a healthy balance.
maybe i might mention dbt to him! i always make sure to tell him ab his problems with miscommuncation or how im not really too comfortable with telling people ily every single time and he knows that but..i'll just have to be patient with him and hopefully he can learn to get better over time ^_^ but thank you! i will try to bring up the topic of dbt ..
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