Rainy day

It's raining today and I find myself occupied with thoughts of where I lie in the "grand scheme" of things. It's a funny suggestion, that there's truly more to everything than merely every aspect of my life and thought. Regardless of this, as I try to catch more sleep on a eerily rainy day, I find myself reminiscing on old childish hopes. The first being, "I wish to graduate valedictorian." As if it were so simple. There's so many more promising and achieved people than me. This hope is a reflection of my petty view of life, centering myself and my achievements over the possible ones of those around me. It's raining today, and I woke up with nothing. No money in my bank account. No promise of things to do during the day. Nothing meaningful or substantial. I woke up and was asked, "Aren't you going to the movies?" As if I wasn't told no. It's raining today and I find my myself occupied with thoughts of life.