I need help bro (ノ_<。)

I see all this cool as balls blinkes or whatever the fucks i cant use them bro i going to give up this shit has me looking like peter griffin falling down the stairs poses bro i like im using so many youtube tutorials but i still don't understand i was born to be a dumb bitch shit i'm on this website i can't fucking code the hell man like tears fr fr (╥_╥) pray from me or don't i don't give a damn but if you can help me dm or something Jesus i might die