jo jo

there is just something wrong with me. im very unhappy! but its kind of an oh well type of thing. im tired for real but what can you do. itll still be my night girl. dont think too hard about it. my heart feels like its gonna spill over..... i hate music so much. i dont want to know anybody... if i spent the days with my head on the desk laid down with nobody to talk to itd be okay to be honest. no contacts in my phone. theres not a whole lot in my head. i hate my life. eveeryone does to some extent... i dont even wanna cry. i wanna exist without having to feel much of anything. im a freak! im sad. i feel as though i dont have much control over it all. there we go thats the sweet spot... just do what comes naturally. but people do hate natural. another oh well kind of thing. i wonder what a lobotomy feels like from a purely scientific perspective....... like just blacking out? i love to skip ads. this new adblocker works wonders. i want to be nice! i kept my cool on the road. though i hope those people die in some sense. no i dont hope they die thats a little too extreme. i mainly hoped something bad would happen to them. i still do. an asshole and his girlfriend. what a piece of shit. at least a big truck had cool spikes on them. i think other people exist just to embarrass me. i think its funny how everyone else has to hide but me. private this private that...... when im still running the same accounts i always have. publically. my ops are pussies fr. im still kicking it. i do want to ruin my life sometimes but thats not anything super interesting actually... i think everyone. its really nothing ... ill think in extremes until my stomach stops hurting